Wednesday, 13 June 2012


Good old sleep. Sleep makes you refreshed.

I'll be able to think better tomorrow I think.



I bottled it.

Of course I was going to bottle it. What did I expect? Just one day and suddenly I'd become Mr. Confident? God knows why I thought I could do it.

So, here I am, back to square one, no idea how to begin, no idea what to do next.

What should I do? I can't say, "Oh yeah, I'll tell her tomorrow", no, I need to build up to that. I need to build up my confidence in smaller chunks. Starting by talking with people I wouldn't normally talk to.

So, tomorrow, I'm going to try to talk with people I don't normally talk with in my Year. After that, people in other Years. Then comes strangers, people who have no idea who I am. Then comes her.

I'm feeling good again already. Lets hope tomorrow is more successful.


P.S. This is going on technorati, so Z82KFAM9F9UY.

Tuesday, 12 June 2012

Mission Statement

Today, as I trawled through the BBC website as I do on a daily basis when I come home from school, I came across something interesting.

Talk to Strangers

The blog was written by a man, Fletcher, who decided to change his outlook on life by randomly talking to strangers. Two years into his "project", and the blog has finally finished, with Fletcher engaged and soon to be married to Michelle, a girl he never had the courage or nerve to talk to before he started the blog. (and coincidentally one of the first women mentioned in the blog and became a permanent fixture over the two years).

Reading all the way through his story of nervousness and unease at attempting to strike up conversations with random strangers was an experience like no other.

It inspired me to start this blog.

So, from now on, I am going to try and be a more open person. I'm going to try to be far less cynical, less elitist, and less miserable. I'm going to become proactive, and take a greater interest in people. Essentially, I will try to stop being a kind-of recluse.

Starting tomorrow with the declaration of my feelings for my best friend of six years.

"What?", I hear the non-existent audience say, shocked.

If I'm going to be more sociable and try to talk to the random guy on the street, or the man who I always see but never talk to, then I'm going to have to start by being more open with people I already know. Starting with her.

And the best part about it is, hopefully this new positive attitude I have instilled inside me will mean that even if she does not reciprocate, then I won't mind. As shown on the blog, there are plenty of people out there. Plenty of people I haven't struck up a friendship with yet, or even glanced at.

Is this crazy? No. This is my way of trying to get out there, not in a massive way since I'm only 17, but its better than sitting in my bedroom playing video games, correct? Correct.

Wish me luck.

-John (which is not my real name by the way)